Category Archives: Mysticism

Tool, Jung, Qabalah, Qliphoth

wpid-IMG_20130623_093154.jpgYou see a post on Facebook.  Some friend of yours has visited Jackson Hole, and there are pictures of mountains, barns and elk.  You yawn and, because your friend seems so excited and you want to be considerate, you click in a quick “like” and move on.

Six months later, while on a a trip out west, you get stuck at Jackson Hole Airport and there’s no plane out until the next morning.  You figure, what the heck, you’re at the only airport in America that’s actually inside a national park.  Why not go look around?

You are floored.  The scenery is incredible, the Teton Range are like no mountains you’ve ever seen before.  Every barn, every elk, and every conifer glows with significance.  You start snapping pictures with your cell phone, fully intending to put them up on Facebook as soon as you get back to the airport, because people have to see this amazing place.

And then you realize that one of your friends already did this.  They were here, they felt the same way you do now, and you ignored their pictures…

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With an hour set aside to work on my forthcoming Qabalah book, I put every Tool record I own on shuffle and slipped on my headphones.  The music played, and the words flowed, until Forty-six & 2 entered the rotation.  My fingers froze.  I had heard this song a thousand times.  And although I always liked it, and could sing along through most of it, it was as if I was hearing it for the first time.

I had long ago thought through the lyrics intellectually.  I had read the Wikipedia article, already knew what the words meant, that the song’s reference to the shadow was supposedly Jungian, etc.   But, I realized, when I had previously heard the song I had never seen the DNA of creation coming down through Kether, had never been forced to face my shadow at Gamaliel and felt a change coming through.  I had not picked the necessary scabs.  Now that I was hearing the song in the wake of my Qabalah project — pathworking the twenty paths of the Sephiroth and Qliphoth — the song was real.   I was in Jackson Hole.  The mountains were breathtaking, and so were the elk and the barns.

In a sense, I am taking pictures and putting them on Facebook.  And, most likely, you are going to give them a polite thumbs up and move on.  But, if you want to know what Forty-six & 2 is really about on its deepest level, pathworking the Sephiroth and Qliphoth are an excellent way to make the discovery.

If you don’t like my route, I’m sure there is another way to reach Jackson Hole.  Perhaps someday you’ll be stuck at the airport, alone and bored, and you’ll decide to explore the surrounding park…

 

 

 

Religion, Mysticism, and Other Web Browsers

Underhill's 1911 masterpiece "Mysticism."

Underhill’s 1911 masterpiece “Mysticism.”

The Universe, in all its beauty, complexity and wonder, is simply too big to easily experience and absorb.  Taking in everything, from the stars in the night sky to the twinkle in your lover’s eye, would be like trying to take in the entire internet.  The human mind has as much trouble getting a handle on totality as it does organizing all websites at once.

Religions and philosophies are like web browsers and their search engines.  They focus on certain things, put them in a particular order, filter out some results.  They slant things a certain way.  Sometimes this filtering is good.  It helps people make sense of the input.  Other times, key pieces of information get left out, folks don’t realize that the results have been filtered, and they take action without knowing the entire picture.  This can be largely harmless, or it can be extremely damaging.  Keep in mind that this is how governments control citizens, how cults operate, and how brainwashing is accomplished: by controlling input, cutting off contact with essential information, and blocking ‘restricted content.’

Mysticism is the attempt to do the seemingly impossible: to take it all in, to let it all inside, to “grasp the divine essence or the ultimate reality of things, and to enjoy the blessedness of actual communion with the Highest.”

Most folks can appreciate the importance of getting all of the information before making important decisions.  Like when you’re sitting on a jury, buying a new car, or contemplating marriage.  But when it comes to religion (and sometimes the web) some people just can’t seem to get on board.

Why is this?  Why do people so often fall in love with the idea of love rather than with people, become so enamored with fictional tableaus that they want to live in them, and frequently seek the comfort of groups over the excitement of flying solo?

I think it boils down to evolution.  People who play it safe live longer than people who don’t.  Their DNA gets passed down more often.  But it’s the ones who want to brave uncharted territory, to go where no one has gone before, who innovate, bring back new spiritual, philosophical, and technical information, and breathe new life into our cultural DNA.  Mystics have changed the world.  Think for a moment about what geometry would look like without Pythagoras, where physics would be without Newton and Schrödinger, psychoanalysis would be without Jung, where literature would be without Blake, Thoreau, and Huxley, and so on.

Raise a new window on reality, change the channel, go someplace you’ve never been.  Try a new browser.

Don’t be afraid to take it all in.

I Broke into the Top 10?

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The Cabal Fang Martial Arts Manual at #4 in Martial Arts, top downloads

As I mentioned the other day, my eBook sales are up markedly.  So I decided to go and see if I made the Top 100 anywhere.

Obviously it’s my martial arts books that are most popular — and I’m very proud and excited about that — but I’m a little bummed about my how my fiction is performing.  Do I suck at fiction?  Or is it just that I’m a smaller fish in a larger pond when it comes to the fiction market?

Hopefully The 14th Mansion will break out and change all that.  Fingers crossed.  Release day is tomorrow, and the anticipation is killing me…

Storm Clouds

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Storm clouds. For no particular reason.

A picture of storm clouds, taken as I got into my truck to go home from work the other day, just because.

Boka Kantina Review

Last Saturday night I ate at Boka Kantina and it rocked.  I opened with the crab rangoon which were stellar — crispy and creamy, with a sauce that was out of this world.  The Asian taco with kimchi was the standout on my plate.  The Mexican, although it was the weakest link, was still very good.

I’m not a foodie, so don’t ask me to break this all down like some fancy critic.   Let’s just say this place is different.  Original, counter-intuitive combinations abound on their funky menu.  I mean, who puts watermelon on a taco?  Well I had a bite of my daughter’s fish taco with watermelon, and it was outstanding.  I don’t know how they make these combinations work, but they do.

What you need to know before you go:  Service was super, atmosphere relaxed, music loud enough to hear without making it hard to talk.  I found their stuff to be hot enough to have some zip, but not hot enough to put off most folks.   They like the truffle oil and the ginger, so if you don’t like either, options will be limited.   Our meal ran $50 for three people including tip.  They do not serve coffee, or at least it’s not on the menu, which was the only negative for me.

Zero Drop, Minimal Shoes: Ups and Downs

Update 7/28/19: I just noticed that scads of people are still reading my pre-Achilles-injury posts from years ago.  I’m no longer in minimal shoes.  In my opinion the whole minimal shoe thing is hocus-pocus.  Shoes were developed and universally adopted because they work better than bare feet.  Do what you want but don’t say I didn’t warn you!  


Original post from 6/8/2014

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My custom zero-drop boots.

Over the last year and a half I have written several posts about making the switch to minimal and/or zero drop shoes.  There have been some ups and downs, but the upshot is, if you’re over 50, I don’t recommend you try to make the switch. Regardless of age, if you decide to try it, go way slower than you think you need to.

Beware — You Might Get Hurt

Although I tried to make the transition from traditional shoes to minimal ones gradually, it didn’t prevent injuries.  I strained my right Achilles over a year ago and I am only now 95% healed.  I’m pain free, but I sometimes get a twinge after some workouts.  Thanks to the Alfredson Protocol (which is 12 weeks of hell, but it works) I can run a couple of miles at a moderate pace without discomfort, but I’m nowhere near being able to attempt any hill climbing sprints.

About a month ago, while doing lunges, I started experiencing pain in the joint where my left big toe attaches to the foot.  It got worse and worse.  Looks like I’m in Stage 1 of Turf Toe.  I had to stop all exercises that involve bending back or springing off the toes (no Lunges, Mountain Climbers, Jump Squats, etc.) and I’m wearing my boots pretty much 24/7.  I’m probably going to have to buy a set of shoe inserts to wear until it heals.  This injury is directly related to wearing thin shoes that allow greater range of motion in the toe joints.

What I’m Wearing Now

I have gone back to traditional shoes for workouts.  For hiking and long walks I sport my zero drop boots.  For work and casual wear, when the load is light and there’s no ballistic movement, I’m wearing very low drop shoes (Chuck Taylor’s around town, and to work a pair of very flat, black leather Keds-like shoes from Aldo’s).

The Final Analysis

So how do I feel about the entire experience, start to finish?  Injuries aside, my feet feel better overall.  The frequent arch pain and foot cramps I used to get are gone.  But I think that is attributable to (a) gradually going from a very high arch support to none, and (b) going up a half size in shoes to allow my feet to spread out.  If I had my ground to go over (pardon the pun), I would have stopped at that point and I would not have tried to make it all the way into minimal shoes.

My Recommendation

My recommendation is that you stick with traditional shoes for workouts.  Consider gradually reducing the amount of arch support to allow your feet to spread out and fill up a larger traditional workout shoe.  This will allow them to do their job more naturally and effectively.  When I say gradually, I don’t mean over the course of a few weeks or months — I mean over a couple of years.

Maybe if you start when you’re in your teens or twenties you could get into minimal shoes without the kind of problems I’ve had.  But if you’re over 50 like I am, stick with functional footwear.

Art!

This is called "art!"  For my first large, graffiti-style piece, it doesn't stink too bad.

This is called “art!” For my first large, graffiti-style piece, it doesn’t stink too bad.  It would’ve been much better if the white paint can hadn’t clogged.  Bummer.

Normally I spend Sunday mornings writing blog posts for the week.  Not today.  I decided to make art.

I often draw and paint (acrylics mostly), but I’ve always wanted to try my hand with spray paints.  You know, graffiti-style.  So I did.

Unfortunately the only can of white paint I had around the house got clogged.  I didn’t bother to run to the store for a new can.  This was supposed to be quick, spontaneous, and fun, not some major project.  It ain’t perfect, but it is what it was supposed to be.  Making the video and writing this post took longer than making the piece.  And it was a blast.

If you want to watch me paint it, I’ve included the video below.

http://youtu.be/LugKwlHChNQ

 

Firefly Cargo Boxes

wpid-20140526_182743.jpgI’m always working and doing things according to the plan.  Sometimes I’m such a freak about my goals — writing goals, workout goals, fitness goals, personal goals, business goals — that I forget to take a break.  Not this weekend.  I decided to do a fun art project on my extra day off.

I got the idea last week.  Someone at the office was talking about being a massive Dr. Who fan, and about costuming.  I mentioned that, if I was going to fall through the costuming rabbit hole again (which I’m not) I’d be a BrowncoatFirefly is in a dead heat with Star Trek (the original) as my favorite TV show of all time.

Anyway, I had some wine crates sitting around and I decided to make some Firefly-inspired cargo boxes to put next to my favorite chair.  Here’s how I did it.

One of the boxes is supposed to be an Independence ammo box, so  I glued and screwed a strips across the top and bottom to give it that WWII ammo box look.  Then I gave both boxes a coat of mud brown paint inside and out to seal them and hide markings and defects.

While that was drying I started distressing the hardware.  You can’t have shiny new hardware on boxes that are supposed to look used!  I put them in a bath of 50/50 water and bleach and boiled them for about 25 minutes.  If you try this, do it outside, be very careful, and use an old pan or a glass one.

The ammo box got a coat of green paint.  While that was drying, I started making stencils so that I could paint on “CARGO,” some random digits, the blue star, and so forth.  The other box I left brown.

Next  came the painting of the details and the hardware installation.  I used spray paint and masking tape.  I also found some cool decals online (thanks to all of the other Firefly fans who did the graphic design!).  I printed those and put them on with a glue stick.  I didn’t have time yesterday, but next weekend I’m going to use a dirty rag and some sandpaper to add a more distressed look.

These are actually really sturdy boxes — they were meant to hold heavy wine bottles after all — so I figure I’ll probably use them when I need to haul stuff to zinefests and what-not.

Sometimes you have to relax and nerd-out.  It’s good for the soul.  Look, these things were fun, and they add a nice touch to my relaxing spot.

 

 

Take a Tour of my Container Garden

This past weekend I put in my container garden.  All I have left are the tomatoes — I want some non-GMO cherry tomato plants, and haven’t had time to go looking.  Here is a quick tour:

http://youtu.be/rNMRewW6IXM

Do Not Seek Outside Yourself

Swiping my way through my Twitter feed the other day I saw this:

Flashing back to my college years, I remembered being forced to read something by Emerson and having to write a paper.  I didn’t remember anything at all about what I read or wrote — other than the fact that I found Emerson to be a total snooze, and that the professor seemed to find it incredible that I wasn’t inspired.

But I did click the link and, to my shock and embarrassment, I realized that “Self-Reliance” was the piece by Emerson that had bored me in college.  Daniel’s article made it seem fascinating, so I found Emerson’s original online.  It opens with this:

“Ne te quaesiveris extra.”¹

“Man is his own star; and the soul that can
Render an honest and a perfect man,
Commands all light, all influence, all fate;
Nothing to him falls early or too late.
Our acts our angels are, or good or ill,
Our fatal shadows that walk by us still.”

~Epilogue to Beaumont and Fletcher’s Honest Man’s Fortune

Cast the bantling² on the rocks,
Suckle him with the she-wolf’s teat;
Wintered with the hawk and fox,
Power and speed be hands and feet.

Inspired, moved, I was sucked in.  How could I have been bored by this in college?  I can only say that I wasn’t mature enough to appreciate it back then.  Thirty-odd years of living, growing, and maturing have made “Self-Reliance” into a great essay.  I now wholeheartedly recommend that you read it in its entirety.

Note: The Beaumont and Fletcher quote from “Self-Reliance” echoes the opening lines of Crowley’s “Book of the Law.”  Here’s an idea for an article, blog post, or term paper: examine “Self-Reliance” through the lens of Thelema.  Emerson came along fifty years before Crowley…

1: “Do not seek outside yourself”

2: A bantling is a young child.  Probably has same root as bantam, meaning small.